Lets talk about taking breaks and recognizing you need one because I did take a break from this. Now, did I need one? Yes, but not the way I decided to take it.When I say this, I mean my purpose. When I say this I mean, I took a break from writing. I put a pause on worshipping in spirit and in truth and honestly from life. I was alive but not living. I wasn’t happy and all I wanted to do was stay in bed. I finally came to the realization that something had to change because I know there is work that needs to be done for the kingdom. I realized I was letting the enemy win. He was winning by keeping me in a place of sin. Every time I neglected God and was disobedient, I was sinning. I was allowing my feelings to dictate my actions.
All I could think was how could I speak into the lives of other women and encourage them to be there best selves when I wasn’t even at my best?
I kept choosing not to listen to Gods voice and to basically do what I wanted to do despite what God had already told me to. Let me just tell you nothing went well for me. I was struggling more than I was before I decided I needed a “break”. Every time I did that I drew further and further away from him, which kept me in darkness. It was giving eve eating the apple in the garden of eden when she knew good and well that she wasn’t supposed to lol. Sis was struggling after. I don’t want that for me or you.
You know what God showed me one day? People, doing exactly what he had told me to do MONTHS ago and I started crying because I knew better. I just couldn’t find the strength nor the motivation to bring myself out.
I knew that it was me who was supposed to be sharing my tools, that has gotten me through, with the people. I knew it was supposed to be me helping women on their healing journey. I knew it was me that was supposed to be creating new everyday tools that women can use in their everyday lives to help them speak life into their situations. I knew it was me who was going to help my family and break generational curses. I knew it was supposed to be me to be the first to do some things, to stand in the gap, but I was in my way. Fear, doubt, feeling of inadequacy and judgement was all I could think about for a while. The enemy had gotten me to a place of comfortability. I was ok with where I was at but not happy, not joyful, not anything. Just numb. Nobody knew I was truly not okay. I had to buckle down and have a sit down with the person that gave me this vision. Who else but God. I also needed to look myself in the mirror and be honest about what was really bothering me. I told God I needed His strength to go on but also I need for my mindset to change on how I viewed my capabilities. I had no confidence in the calling over my life. His help was the only way I was going to make it through because I kept leaning on my own understanding and everything seemed impossible to attain. That’s why scripture tells you NOT to lean on YOUR understanding BUT to ACKNOWLEDGE the Father in ALL your ways so He can direct your path.
If im being honest that where I kept messing up and that’s how the enemy kept me down. BUT I am here to tell you NO MORE. I have been set free, my mind has been renewed and I am a new creature in Christ. I cannot afford to not involve God in EVERY part of my life. I cannot afford to let my emotions and temporary feelings run the show anymore. I want every person reading this to be blessed and to be encouraged. To recognize the power that works in you by way of the spirit.
You WILL come out of that situation. You WILL be FREE from bondage. You WILL be HEALED. YOU WILL BE SET FREE. IN JESUS NAME!!!!
Reference Scriptures:
“You used to live in sin, just like the rest of the world, obeying the devil—the commander of the powers in the unseen world. He is the spirit at work in the hearts of those who refuse to obey God.”
Ephesians 2:2 NLT
“Rebellion is as sinful as witchcraft, and stubbornness as bad as worshiping idols. So because you have rejected the command of the Lord, he has rejected you as king.””
1 Samuel 15:23 NLT
““Yes, I am the vine; you are the branches. Those who remain in me, and I in them, will produce much fruit. For apart from me you can do nothing. Anyone who does not remain in me is thrown away like a useless branch and withers. Such branches are gathered into a pile to be burned.”
John 15:5-6 NLT
““I looked for someone who might rebuild the wall of righteousness that guards the land. I searched for someone to stand in the gap in the wall so I wouldn’t have to destroy the land, but I found no one.”
Ezekiel 22:30 NLT
“In all thy ways acknowledge him, And he shall direct thy paths.”
Proverbs 3:6 KJV
“And you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.””
John 8:32 NLT
“For we are God’s masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so we can do the good things he planned for us long ago.”
Ephesians 2:10 NLT