It’s been a while but I want to share this season on my life and the things God has been doing in my life. Words really can’t express how I feel but He is amazing He is and He has been faithful. How could I not share?!
Let’s start I guess with my birthday that just passed in September 2024
Birthdays are important, not just to me but to my family and to my inherited family(friends). Whether you want to celebrate or not, just know you will be celebrated or at least recognized that on this particular day you were brought into this world.
Last year I spent my birthday with someone I had no business being with and at the time I knew I shouldn’t be with Him but the desire and longing for wanting companionship was heavy. He was the only one I thought I could be with which slowly diminishing all faith I had in God to send me my person. I was making moves and decisions on my own accord, knowing God was not pleased with me. He had spoken to me about this person time and time again but I still chose to not listen. Tragic, I know. That battle between flesh and spirit is real. At some point you HAVE to choose, which I did by the way(shoutout to me for getting it together) & I did this by simply being obedient.
As we entered a new year, I was struggling!!! By the my birthday rolled around again I can testify to say I was longer bound to a relationship that does not glorify God. I can also say my mind is renewed and I’ve been set free. Period!Free from lust and lack, all I had to do was choose. Everyday I had to wake up and make a decision. Of course fasting and prayer was involved. Yea, I was not playing. After a while you get tired of the cycles and your desire changes when you really genuinely decide to seek a deeper relationship with God and decide to do life with Him. I can go but relationship stuff will be for another time.
Anyways, we are now in 2024 and September is rolling approaching. The question of what am I doing for my birthday keeps popping up and my response naturally is I don’t know, because I didn’t. Furthermore I was supposed to be away since August but the trip kept getting pushed back. Planning birthdays can sometimes be very irritating but I did have something in my mind once I was away. I knew I wanted to be on the beach, relaxing. Let’s just say it did not turn out that way. As i saying before, the date kept getting pushed back so I was over it. This should’ve been my first response but once I get a sense in my spirit that this is not working because it’s not what God wants me to do, I pray. Literally that the second to last week in August I was told what I should do for my birthday and if I’m being honest I didn’t necessarily like the answer. Crazy right? I know lol but I’m being honest I was not with any of it. He wanted me to finally share my songs I had written years ago in 2017 with other people. Let me just let you know I’ve tried working on these songs before and tried getting it produced but it just never worked out. I took that as God just wanted me to put it down and sing them in church so that was MY plan. God said uh uh you’re going to have a worship night and you’re going to sing them there and you’re going to do it on live. Worry came knocking and I had to really try my hardest at every turn pray. Remind myself that if God said to do it He will provide and it will go the way He wants it to go. IT WAS AMAZING. Weeks leading up to it though, I had to replace my piano player, background singers dropped out, people became unavailable but to His be all glory. Even with all of that taking place, the night was more than I could ever had imagined it would be. My heart was full, still is, and not only was I blessed, my loved ones were too. God will blow your mind in the small things such as a birthday. I had so many thoughts and perspectives on what a birthday should look like or how it should be celebrated. God tore it all down and gave me His mind concerning it.
Would you cancel your plans to do something God asked you to do instead for your birthday?
How are you allowing God to move and show up in your life?