Another chill type day. As I am writing this I kind of feel like my life is mad boring lol. Like, girl you real life have no life but I praise God. It’s not that I have no life, it is just very quiet. Which I honestly do love. I thank you Lord that I can rest. I thank you Lord that there is no pressure on me to survive, to live, to try to figure things out. Even though sometimes I do worry and I am concerned of what is my next move but I really am trying not to worry. I am really trying to just trust you God and not complain because things could be worst. I do not want to not make it into the promise land because im complaining about my waiting season. Im complaining about my wilderness season. I really have to catch myself but yes today was chill. I did want to head to the pool but it started raining and it was slow for that. I spent time with my best buddy and in His presence. This new thing God is doing in me and in the relationships around me is mmmm I don’t know. Not sure really how I feel concerning this matter but I love the bond thats being cultivated in this season between my nice and I. I am learning to be selfless. I am so use to it just being me. Being the only girl and not ever really having to share anything or worry about anyone else. I am not selfish but I see how certain things are kind of showing up within me. Feelings I did not know existed. it’s definitely giving preparation for a daughter lol because hunnayyyy lol. I love her, I do but it’s like okay enough is enough 😩😩😩😩 is that bad? lol I don’t know but I do wish I could do more for her but I think I also be like okay girl you’re not a baby but when I have my own child its not going to matter there age I need to be able to put myself, my feelings to the side and tend to them which baybeh I don’t know if im going to be able to do it lol. Whew Lord work it out lol im learning, im learning. Im also learning to lead by example and love because I feel like that what Jesus did. I cant be out here expecting her or anyone else to act a certain way if im always taking the low road. Do better better girl.
Song for today l Give Thanks by Tye Tribbett
https://youtu.be/EiEgh6_3tYY?si=CqIVql_DKfKIgMry
Signing off this|Until tomorrow…
Stay ANCHORED IN HIS TRUTH