The enemy really be trying to provoke me to anger and my dumb behind keep falling for the foolery. It’s so annoying! God I am TIRED, mainly because I really do try to stay calm! What’s more annoying is my family opens up themselves to be used and manipulated and I sometimes recognize it in the moment but then there are the times I just let my emotions get the best of me. I don’t know what’s wrong with me and where the spirit of anger has come from but Lord something has to give. Im getting frustrated and annoyed for nothing. Im getting offended for things that never use to bother me. Whhhhyyyyy?! 😩 That spirit of offense be leaving me ready to fight but that is not the way Amanda girl smh. Lord, help me find a better way. There has to be a solution. Im noticing that it is not just me either but it runs deep within my family and it’s just sad. Something has to break.
Besides going through the motions though, today was actually fake okay. Very busy in a good way. The day made me realize how much God has changed my desire, appetite and perspective on having fun. Everyone around me was drinking and turning up and I had no desire to partake. We had a little boat ride and Tia’s birthday was a vibe. Soca started playing, so of course me and the family had to get busy one time for the one time but I was very content with not drinking. I was very content with not partaking in the hookah festivities. I had a good time just catching up with family. I don’t see them much so a time was had.
Signing off this|Until tomorrow…
Stay ANCHORED IN HIS TRUTH