Father, today was a good day. I woke up heavy but honey I thank you Father that im not going to sleep feeling heavy. You really did your biggest one for me today and I thank you for my sister in Christ that I was able to call. I thank you that you brought me truth exposing the lies of the enemy. I thank you for reminding me that I am NEVER alone. I thank you for getting me through this day and giving me the capacity to go through this mourning stage, to through this pruning. I did not realize it would hurt this much but that is okay, all for your glory. I cant even complain because I asked you to use me. I prayed for you to change me, to touch me and make me whole. I asked for you to remove people that are not for me, that would be a distraction. I guess this is what this is lol, my prayers being answered. So all I can continue to say is thank you.
Today I stuck to my morning routine and I was really able to check things off my to-do list. I am extremely proud of myself, we off to a good start. Father just please always remind me of today and remind me when I feel like its all to much that I have no reason to worry. That I have no reason to fear. Remind me that everything I need for this season is within me. Remind me that I am not going out into this world by my name, na but it’s by your name I go. By your power do I speak. I thank you for allowing me to get to this point where I realize I CANNOT do this thing called life without you. I CANNOT run a successful business without you. I CANNOT keep my peace, my joy, my plans, my goals without you. I NEED you and honestly Father I want you. I want to always NEED you because I do not want to ever feel like I do not have you. I feel like I know what thats like and you already know that part of my life was ghetto lol. Even then you still had your hand on me. You still was watching over me and I thank you.
I really understand or at least I think I do, when Nehemiah said “- for the joy of the Lord is your strength”. He ate with that not going to lie because huh what?! What do you mean?! That if I walk in your joy I will be strengthened. Not walking in anger. Not walking is complaining. Not walking in self pity or unforgiveness. Not walking in someone else’s happiness. Not walking in sadness and doubt but YOUR JOY. My God thats good and I really like I experienced that today. I chose not to wallow but I chose the Joy of the Lord and it definitely strengthened me. *sigh* You are so good God. Tomorrow, we are at it again. My day is already in your hands.
Nehemiah 8:10
Nehemiah said, “Go and enjoy choice food and sweet drinks, and send some to those who have nothing prepared. This day is holy to our Lord. Do not grieve, for the joy of the Lord is your strength.”
Song on my heart:
Stay Anchored in His Truth!!!