It sucks that I cannot get it right. I have my schedule lol I just don’t ever get to stick to it or something comes up. Which derails me. I feel like I have just been going and going but not really getting the important things done smh which is frustrating and by the time im like yes I have time, im sleepy. The sleep just hits me, slaps me unexpectedly and I cannot control it 😩. I don’t know what to do anymore Lord. Was it a productive day? Mmmmm yea for sure. Finally dropped my Youtube video! Im so proud of me. The editing was a drag but I got it done nonetheless. I played myself by going to sleep because by the time I got up I did not want to do nothing else. How can I manage my time better though?…. I think I need to cut out naps from my day but I LOVE a nap 😩. I also will intimidating which then produces in many ways.
Lord help me, I feel like im failing You but I know thats a lie from the enemy but it doesn’t take away from the feeling. Help me to be strengthened in your grace because I know it is sufficient. I literally cannot do this thing called life without you. This season I need you more than ever before to complete the assignments you have given me. I know you are stretching me and also preparing me but if im being honest it does not feel good at all. I sometimes question or doubt if I can do it but I know thats the enemy. So I cast down every thought that is not of you and that it not truth. I just need your help Father. Everyday there’s a new giant it seems. Im not trying to complain because I thank you for choosing me. I thank you for your grace but Lord it is definitely more than I expected. Forgive my unbelief Lord. I also thank you for your Holy Spirit and your peace because despite the foolishness going on I have been so calm and just at peace. I just want complete everything already and I guess that is me just wanting to be in control or speed up the process. So, forgive me for that as well. I am not trying to rush your hand but I need you to come to my rescue. Thank you for being the lifter of my head and being my help. I just wanted to let you know how I was feeling and what was on my mind but I leave everything at your feet Father. I love you so much 😭 and I want You to be pleased with me. No matter what I will not terminate anything before it is complete and it is good. Thank you in Jesus name Amen
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