I want to scream. I want to just leave everything get on a plane and forget everything and everyone. I dont even know why I am feeling like this or why I was in such weird space today but ugh I did not like it at all. Im waaaaaayyyyyy better now, thank God, but earlier mmm my mood was horrible. I was trying to get stuff done but couldn’t focus. Then, I was aggravated because I couldn’t focus. Then, I was high key mad I had to do my nieces hair even though thats what we discussed. My spirit wanted to do it but my flesh was not having it. Sis, my spirit, was fighting though. The issue became me trying to ignore what I was feeling. Let’s be for real, girl now you know the Bible says to cast your cares on Him and cast down any imagination that tries to exalt itself above God and truth. Did I do that? Ha, of course not lol but I commend myself for recognizing it and not letting it go past a couple of hours. Have to recognize the growth. I don’t know, it was weird. I should’ve taken a break and sought the Lord but I just kept going so I could get what I needed to get done completed, which I didn’t even end up doing. I did my niece’s hair and was over the day. I just wanted to eat and sleep at that point. Prayer of course is what got me out of that funky mood and seeing my brother made my heart smile. Even though he was being kind of weird but I just ignored it, as I always do because I know asking him wouldn’t have made a difference.
Lord, I dont know what to do about the relationship with my brothers. When will we get to a place of full transparency and truth? I try, I really do. Well you know I do but it’s like im talking to a wall. No response, no specific feeling, just blah. I pray for there heart and hope one day we can all be able to sit and discuss the issues of our hearts. Everything is in your hand and everything will happen in Your time. I trust you Abba. In Jesus name, Amen.
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