Seasons are inevitable but there will always be a time in your life where you are in a season that’s not your favorite. For example, I do not like winter. Im sorry, the cold just is not for me but there are those that find the positive things about winter that they love and they embrace it. In every season something has to die so new life can spring forth. Dying is the part of life a lot of us do not favor. I mean who would. I know I don’t like death at all but it is necessary and I am realizing that now. My perspective on it has changed. habits have to die, mindsets have to die, desires have to die, & FLESH has to die.
This is not the first time I am getting to experience this season, BUT I am now learning to embrace what beauty this season holds. This season of being separated. Soooooo, I am definitely in a season of singleness, which I use to hate but I am also in a season of isolation, which I also hate. You are probably wondering why so much hate but truth is I was always unhappy in those seasons of life. Why? because it was doing to much lol requiring me to step out of my comfort zone and speak to strangers. Sit with my thoughts. I was not accustomed to being alone. Your girl was always around someone, not even because I enjoyed the conversation or their company but they helped to fill or distract me from my true emotions. To some, mostly the outside world “society”, this is the time I should be living it up and living my best life. Single meant turn up but never really worked out for me for to long, maybe just for a second. I would go out and do everything to distract my self, smoke, drink, have sex, eat, or curse people out but I was still unhappy. Perspectives had to change and ,minds needed renewing.
If you were to see me in this season and you’re watching from the outside looking in, it would not appear that way at all. It would not appear that I was stressed out or going through something that I did not want to discuss. It felt as though the world was on my shoulders. You would think I was going through it but eventually I settled into the season of singleness and isolation. During this time I am not going out. I am not really hanging with my friends. Not posting on social media(personal page). I am not going on trips. I can tell you what I am doing though, I am learning. I am actually living. I am soaring. I am healing. I am learning so much about myself and I am growing, which I love. You do not always have to be in the mix or in the social scene to live your best life. Sometimes your peace of mind is the best part. You do not always have to be around a whole bunch of people to have fun. It is okay to be by yourself. I am enjoying the sound of my own voice because I am starting to find it. Never would I have thought I would be in this season where I am single AGAIN and not dating or talking to anyone BUT it was the best thing that I chose to do for ME. It is okay to put yourself first. It is okay to let go of other peoples opinions and start forming your own but you will never do that if every chance you get you fill it with noise. Everyone’s opinions is drowning out your own, you can’t tell the difference between your thoughts and a thought that was born from someone else’s experience.
If you are in this season of your life where you are single and maybe you feel isolated or lonely, it is okay. Embrace it. Find the positivity in it all. You will be better for it.
“When I was a child, I spake as a child, I understood as a child, I thought as a child: but when I became a man, I put away childish things
1 Corinthians 13:10